Our Journey with Infertility, Miscarriage, and Ectopic Pregnancy

For some reason I always had this feeling that it would be really hard for me to have children.  When we got married, we had every intention to wait at least a year before having children.   However, unexpectedly only 3 months later we had discovered that we were expecting our first baby. We were so excited!!  My husband LOVES children and is so good with them and was ready to be a daddy.  Children have always been my main focus and my life ever sense I was very young.  So even though it was not expected… we were so ready and so excited!!

levi and i

A couple weeks later we were out of town and we saw a yard sale with this PERFECT crib and changing table that was basically brand new and at a ridiculously low price.  So we set up our nursery!!  I sat in that room often- completely filled with joy!!

Soon….  that room changed from a room of joy and hope… to a room of sadness.   I went to work just like any other day.  But that day was different.  I left work, went to the hospital, and there found out that we were miscarrying.  I don’t even know how I drove home that 30 mile drive… I was a complete mess emotionally and in a lot of discomfort physically.

It was a really a hushed thing.  I didn’t want ANYONE to know!!  I hated that we had to tell our parents.  I hated that I had nobody who understood.  Miscarriage is so taboo…. nobody talks about it. Or if it is brought up– the subject is quickly changed.  I was so confused.  I didn’t understand how it could have happened.

I grew really close to my husband the next couple of months to follow.  But he didn’t struggle with it quite like I did… he just struggled with seeing me hurt.  But I knew how much he wanted to be a dad!

We wanted to try and have a baby as soon as we could.  But tried for months and never had any success…   After MANY doctor visits, and the doctors saying that “you are still young– you have plenty of time”  I became more and more frustrated because nothing was being done to make this happen.    Finally after a year we found out we were expecting again!!  I was so THRILLED and so ready to finally give my husband a baby.

However… something seemed “different” with this pregnancy.  I thought that maybe different was a good thing.  But then I started to have sharp pains on one side and started to spot.  I knew that this “different” couldn’t be a good thing.  I figured I was miscarrying again and had no desire to even go to the doctor.  But for some reason I had the feeling that I needed to go in.  I headed to the hospital where they then ran some tests.  The nurses said that the test was now negative and that I miscarried….   however the doctor came out and said “something is off, we need to get you in for another ultrasound”.   In I went…   usually only 1 person does my ultrasound.  This time there were 3.  Next, they had the person over the ultrasounds come in followed by my doctor.   There I lay wondering why there were 5 people discussing my ultrasound.  At that moment I had wished so much that my husband was there with me as I sat there in confusion.  They announced that it was ectopic and could become life threatening.   Back into the doctors office I went where they discussed what was going on and the action we would take.   He asked if I wanted to enjoy my thanksgiving (the following day) and I told him that nothing would change what was already going on…

So….  they started to give me a type of chemo shot (wish I remembered what it was called) to stop the cells from developing and bursting my Fallopian Tube.   I was very sick and tired for that thanksgiving.  But more than anything… I was embarrassed.  I hated that the family knew and there I was.  I felt like I was this pity bulls eye and nobody knew how to even talk to me or act around me.   I faked a smile every day.  I pretended like I was okay but emotionally I was not.  I couldn’t let myself cry.    Every other day I would go in to get more blood drawn for lab work.  Week after week I would go in for another chemo shot.  After about 5 weeks of this process, I went into the doctors office for more testing and another shot.  This time I said to my doctor “I just don’t know how much longer I can be positive through this”.  He told me I didn’t have to be…    For the first time I broke down and completely sobbed.  I released a full years worth of pain right there in the doctors office and on my drive home.

Time passed and we were ready to try having a baby again.  Month after month I had a negative test and would cry and wonder why it wasn’t happening for us.  After many doctor visits, getting on chlomid, and many more months of negative tests we finally conceived 2 more times… which again ended in miscarriage.

With each miscarriage, I began to hate my body more and more. I hated that it wouldn’t do what a women’s body should do.  I hated that I couldn’t give my husband any children and wished he would leave me to be with someone who could…   I started to hate if my husband touched me.  I hated if anyone talked to me.  I avoided people.  I often avoided my husband.  I hated who I was.  I didn’t care to exercise or eat healthy.  I figured my body was failing me anyway so why bother.  I felt unworthy of love and emotionally distanced myself from the person that loved me most.  I spent many days in that little baby nursery in our home wondering if and when I should just throw it all away.

Then… out of nowhere… we were asked if we wanted to take in a sweet little 5 month old.  We immediately said yes without hesitation.  For the first time, I became a mommy and my husband became a daddy!  Picking him up was one of the happiest days of my life!!  I had no idea that the 18 months to follow would be yet another emotional roller coaster.  We wanted his birth parents to make the changes necessary to bring him back home… but at the same time we wondered how on earth we would ever be able to give him back.  I spent many nights holding him wondering how I was going to do it.   We had so much love for that sweet little boy.  When his sister born, I was so ecstatic.  We went to the hospital to pick her up and bring her home.   We immediately fell in love with her too!

1 month later… we got positive test. I was SO HOPEFUL and just knew that it was finally time!  I knew that If did have children easily  we wouldn’t have been open to the opportunity of taking in two very small foster children and wouldn’t have been able to give all that love to our boy and girl!  So I knew that now that we had them– it was time to finally have a successful pregnancy.  Yet, we then again at 10 weeks miscarried.   I had a 2 month old little girl, and a 16 month old little boy that I had to be strong for!  I was so hopeful just to be disappointed again and it really, really, hurt this time more than ever before because I let myself hope.

After that point– I couldn’t let myself hope anymore.  I figured we would just have to give our kids back to their birth parents. I figured I would never be a permanent mommy to a child.  I figured I would never be able to allow my husband to be a daddy.  I was so sick of the scene and had no desire to ever try again.  So we stopped going to doctors, we stopped caring but didn’t take any action to prevent us from having children.

Six months later we were completely taken away when we went to court and found out that our little boy and out little girl were going to be forever ours!  We finally were going to be able to adopt our sweet little babies!  We didn’t have to worry about giving them back anymore… they were finally ours!

adoption day

I remember holding my sweet little girl and realizing that I needed to work on ME emotionally, mentally and physically.  I didn’t want her to learn from me how to hate her body… how to be a quitter… how to never hope for great things… and how to feel unlovable.  I had to change for her!!  I wanted her to feel beautiful! I wanted her to love herself!  I wanted her to reach for big dreams!

So I started on a journey.  I started working on my health and fitness instead of neglecting my body that I hated.  I started doing nutrition and fitness groups through Facebook with friends  (and some wonderful people I didn’t know but who are such great friends now) where we would help keep each other motivated and accountable every single day! You can do these free groups by applying here -> https://callred.wufoo.com/forms/r8o3oli1xcz244/
I also started to do daily personal development to work on myself mentally, spiritually and emotionally.

Month after month, my life began to change!  My STORY CHANGED!  I went from “I am unlovable”, “I hate myself”, “I don’t deserve to be a mom”, “I am the worst wife ever”, to the following story–>  “I deserve to be a mom”, “I take care of my body and am happy about what it CAN DO”, “I am LOVABLE!”.   I felt confident for the first time sense 4th grade.  I felt happy instead of faking a smile.   And I  liked ME for the first time!
1 year transformation

Now, almost 2 years later and 7 1/2 years of struggling with infertility and failed pregnancies,   I am now 32 weeks pregnant.  I am overwhelmed with the blessings in my life.    We got on progesterone, lots of natural folate, and Enoxaparin Sodium shots.  I also have continued eating healthier, exercising every day, working on my mindset, and drinking Shakeology (over 70 superfoods to provide the best nutrition for me and baby possible).   Some days it seems so surreal that this is actually happening!!    Soon we will be a mommy and daddy to 3 beautiful children…  I went from believing I would never be a mom to soon being a mommy of 3 (ages birth to 3).   Every week goes by and more stress is relieved as I get closer to our due date and knowing that we are closer to our sweet little boy being in our arms!

32 weeks

It has been a hard 7 1/2 years… but I wouldn’t change it!!  I finally became stronger, healthier, more confident and the wife and mom I need to be.  All of the disappointment, all of the pain, all of the emotional roller coasters, helped me to take ACTION to finally invest in myself and change my life.  I finally made a COMMITMENT, and CHOICE to change!

If you are struggling with any of these things, don’t loose hope…   Find JOY in the JOURNEY!  While you are hoping for things… don’t forget to notice what is going WELL right now!  Find joy in something now.  Do something that gives you purpose.  For me– that was getting a degree.  That was finding joy in learning how to play the violin.  That was spending lots of quality time with my husband. That was becoming an online coach and helping other people emotionally, mentally, and with their health and fitness journey.  Find what gives you purpose.  Keep a gratitude journal that you write in each night so that you are focusing on the things that are good in your life instead of the heartache and the things you wish you had.  And lastly, take CARE OF YOU and know that you are never alone in the journey!



Why Not Be a Beachbody Coach?

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——All of my life, all that I ever wanted was just to be a MOM!!! – – – – –
I wanted so badly to be a mom but also to be a stay-at-home mom. My hopes began to be pretty shattered when we tried for years to have a baby… with no success…. I didn’t want to just wait for that time to come. So I got a degree and started to work with children for my career.
Randomly and unexpectedly, God had a plan for us that we didn’t know about. We were suddenly blessed with the opportunity to receive 2 small children into our home. That later turned into the opportunity of adoption!
My dreams were starting to happen but I was still working. I LOVED my job and the people I worked with, but desired so much just to be home with my babies. SO I decided to quit my job (this was really hard for me!!) I searched for a few months and prayed so much for an opportunity to work from home!! BUT NOTHING felt right… Finally, I heard about an opportunity to work from home as an online fitness coach. I was very hesitant to do something like that and had SO MANY doubts!! But then I decided to research into it and pray about it. I knew that it was exactly what I was supposed to do!!
Coaching has not only helped us financially but has also changed me into becoming healthier, happier, and a better wife and mom! I LOVE coaching because It isn’t a network marketing business from home where you are just selling product…. instead, you are sincerely trying to help people change their lives!!! There is so much purpose and joy every single day of my life! It is such a blessing to find a purpose in every day life and earn a full time income all from home!
I want to be able to provide some information for you moms/dads or women who are looking for something that you can do from home! I am currently expanding my team and would love to mentor you and help you to find the same kind of success that the women on my team are finding!!
This opportunity has completely changed my life!!! I have become so much more healthier, happier, and more fit! I have become more confident and positive. I am a more energetic mom! And I LOVE being able to spend all the time I need and want with my children and husband while still running a business!!! This last 6 MONTHS I have been so sick… with this pregnancy that I haven’t been able to work much on my business BUT this week I still had my highest paycheck ever! (paid weekly). I am so excited about the opportunities this has provided me and my family! I am excited about what is going to come in the future! This is changing our lives!! —–

>>> If you want to be a #fitmom for your job, send me an email and I can get you some info. I have a Coach Sneak Peak Facebook Event going on for 1 hour on Thursday night!! You can just be a fly on the wall if you wish and learn more about it to see if it is a good fit for you and your family. I am excited for you to find success and joy like so many of the coaches on my team! Send me an email if you want an invite to the online event OR I can send you all your info to your email so that you can learn more!

Email: crystalallredfitness@gmail.com

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Nashville or Bust! Coach Summit 2016

13872843_941963562580244_7641548942858413508_nI used to NEVER go anywhere without Levi. I hated doing things alone or doing new things. I REFUSED to do anything out of the norm and avoided going to large events where there is any socialization involved.

This is something that is way out of my comfort zone. However, I am growing in so many aspects of my life by being a coach!!

The 2016 Beachbody Coach Summit was in Nashville and I jumped at the change to attend with my fellow friends and coaches. We drove to Denver, boarded a plane, and off to Nashville we went!

I went to coach summit because last year it completely changed me!!  I went from someone who had no confidence, struggled to get out of bed every morning, feeling like I was not growing or becoming who I wanted to be, to being someone who lives each day with so much joy and purpose.  I became a better individual, mom, wife, coach and stronger in every aspect of my life!  I refuse to let moments that make me stronger pass me by!  

The best thing about summit is the unity that you feel as you are surrounded by THOUSANDS of people who are working on being stronger spiritually, mentally, and physically and helping others to do the same.  I love celebration night as we celebrate the transformations (inside and out) of our challengers!  This night is VERY SHOWY with small concerts, performers, fireworks, and transformation stories.   So much of my life and heart goes into helping my challengers to become happier, healthier and live more fulfilling lives!  It is so exciting to see the challenge winners win $20,000-$100,000 on stage and to see how much their lives have completely changed!  It makes all of the ups and downs of coaching that much more rewarding as we see how much it really can and does change lives!  The programs WORK!!  And I am here to make sure that you are able to get the results that you are looking for and will be there to support you and help you, not just for 30 days but for as long as you let me!

Being able to celebrate the successes of my team and other coaches and challengers is one of the main reasons I wanted to attend the summit. That’s what I love about this business! We’re not COMPETING against one another, we’re COMPLETING one another and able to cheer each other on. Everyone is so helpful to support one another and everyone wants you to succeed in your business.


And there’s just something about being around “your people”–Love being a mommy but I love that I get that break as a coach just to talk to adults, feel like I am making a difference, and spend time with like-minded people that build me up!!


While at the summit, I loved working out and getting the best fitness and nutrition tips from top trainers. They really know their stuff and now I get to pass that knowledge onto you!


So inspiring and neat to be a part of this summit! What an amazing night to see all of these amazing challengers with HUGE transformations. There are so many things in our lives that pop up that give us an excuse to not workout or not eat healthy, or not make a change in our life!! But the thing is…. those things are just… EXCUSES!  So many excuses are out there— Time, its just genetic, too tired, money, kids, work, etc. — Don’t let anything hold you back! Kick all the excuses to the curb and be the best you that you can be!


There is no way that I would have enjoyed a workout a couple years ago— let alone enjoy a workout while being in my 3rd trimester of pregnancy! But my team and my challengers helped me to be so much more motivated and accountable until it became part of my lifestyle. I love this lifestyle!!

And even though the summit was our main priority, coaches are just people too! We’re silly and we indulge in cheat meals every once and a while! One cheat meal won’t make you fat, just like one salad won’t make you skinny—it’s all about moderation and discipline. I couldn’t help but indulge in the world famous donut burger while I was here! (‘Cause you just can’t get one of those where I’m from!)

One of my favorite parts of the whole summit was when a lady who had cerebral palsy spoke to us.  Everyone told her everything she couldn’t do and would never be able to do.  She went through many challenges yet she continually proves the world wrong!  She walk, has a very successful career as a comedian and speaker, is married, takes care of herself, and lives a happy and fulfilling life despite her hardships and limitations.   It was powerful to watch her and listen to her!  If SHE CAN— ANYONE CAN reach any goal they desire!!!   WHY NOT YOU???  WHY NOT NOW???   if you want something— go get it!!  I believe that good desires are planted in our hearts and minds because we are meant to achieve them.  God would not plant those desires unless they were our potential.  We do not know the time it will take or how many hardships you will go through to get there, but you will get there!!   FIGHT for what you want.  WORK HARD, and be PATIENT in the process! 


Tasty Tuesday: Crockpot Chicken Fajitas


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During these hot, busy summer months, let your crock pot keep your kitchen cool and do all the work for your meals.

I love throwing chicken in the crock pot real fast so I have  healthy protein options ready to go– 13501765_919381494838451_9205316171699247833_nto throw with a fruit or veggie, toss on a salad, or in a taco or pita.

If I don’t have quick options I typically go for things I shouldn’t eat… especially with this preggo tummy. When I need food it has to be pretty immediate! But I am determined to finish the week out great and now I am prepared so I can!

I loved this slow cooker chicken fajita recipe and it even can be made ahead time and frozen. These types of meals are PERFECT for busy summer days or save it for days when you’re asking yourself the “what’s for dinner?” question. Being prepared with healthy meals made with clean ingredients will make it easier to pass up the drive-thru when you don’t know what to make for dinner.

Crock Pot Chicken Fajitas

For the make ahead freezer meal: take a gallon freezer bag and write the cooking instructions on the bag with a black Sharpie. This is way easier than trying to write them after the bag is filled!

Write on Bag: Cook on low 8-10 hours or on high 4-5 hours. Remove chicken when done cooking & shred, return to crock pot. Serve on  whole wheat tortilla shells or bed of lettuce.


  • 1.5 – 2 lbs. Chicken Breasts, boneless and skinless
  • 1/2 medium – large white onion (or red onion, or mix of both) , sliced vertically
  • 1 green pepper, sliced into strips
  • 1 red pepper, sliced into strips
  • 2 cans (10 oz.) Rotel diced tomatoes, un-drained (I used “Mild”)
  • 2 cloves garlic, diced
  • 2 tsp. chili powder
  • 2 tsp. cumin


  1. Take the chicken breasts and divide between 2 freezer bags and put them in it.
  2. Slice the green and red peppers, onion and garlic (dividing between the 2 bags).
  3. Add 1 can of diced tomatoes, undrained to each bag.
  4. Finally add your seasonings (1 tsp of each per bag).
  5. Freeze.
  6. The night before you want to cook them, take the bag out of the freezer and let it defrost in the fridge.
  7. Cook on low 8-10 hours or on high 4-5 hours.
  8. Remove chicken when done cooking & shred, return to crock pot.
  9. Serve on tortilla shells or on a bed or lettuce for a fajita salad
  10. Enjoy!

Each freezer bag should feed a family of 4

Don’t forget to check out the HEALTHY RECIPES tab at the top of the blog for other 21 Day Fix Approved recipes!

Interest vs. Commitment

Time?!?! Who has time for everything they need or want to do?

You only do the things that you have VALUE on!

Value the life you have been given. Take care of your body— it is the home for your spirit. As you take care of YOU, you will find you energy, focus and productivity increases and you will get more done!


13501560_922126297897304_733908349544374976_nToday was one of those days that I felt that I REALLY didn’t have time for my workout. However I am committed to 60 days of this program and determined to take care of me and this pregnancy!

I have decided to commit to a new program for 8 weeks!! My challengers and I have always gotten the best results when following a full program. They work!!! So why not do one while pregnant and just making adjustments and modifications where needed?! Instead of jumping from workouts with no real direction. I want to be healthy for my baby and I want toned legs and arms 😉 So I am committed to sticking to good nutrition for me and baby and sticking to the TurboFIRE program for 2 full months!! I will be making a few adjustments for my pregnancy and adding a bit of PiYo, water aerobics and walking. But I am so excited to do this program and determined to get through it while also listening to my body.


Message me if you want in our next challenge group with programs that provide results and to get motivation and accountability to help you reach your goals!

The Secret to Change

Do you ever think…. “If I could just be skinny I would be happier… or more confident?”.

That is how I used to think. I struggled really bad with my self-esteem and had very low confidence. I was also very unhappy…

I would try to lose weight all the time! Just fail time and time again. I would become desperate and try to find solutions that were quick fixes so that I could love myself. Just to become frustrated… quit… and hate myself even more.


Little did I know I was doing it all VERY WRONG!!! Those quick fixes will NOT bring happiness. The results are also only very short term.

It is all about overall HEALTH and getting the best nutrition possible and exercising. That is it! Yes it takes time— but it also lasts a lifetime and the rewards are so much greater! Many of you know that for 7 years I could not have children…. for the first time we are carrying a sweet little baby! I know that I HUGE FACTOR in that is the weight I lost (the healthiest way) and the lifestyle change that has come into my life!


It is through the PROCESS, the journey, that you find joy and learn to love yourself! NOT the end result. As you can see— my end result is much, much, different than I had expected!!


Yesterday, I started a new round of the 21 day fix with shakeology with my challengers. This is the program that has completely changed my life! I learned how to eat right. I learned the importance of counting nutrients that I put into my body instead of calories. I learned how to eat healthy without ever feeling deprived. I learned how to love exercising! AND most of all– I learned to love myself!

We start another group soon, and I want you to join us!! I want you to be able to create a lifestyle change that helps you to be happier and healthier for life! Comment below if you want more info or send me a message if you’re ready for change in your life!

These are the kinds of things I LOVE hearing from people in my challenge groups

  • “I am learning to eat healthier and don’t feel bloated anymore”
  • “I never thought I could even lose 10 lbs…. now I have lost 40!”
  • “I went from a XXL shirt to finally being able to just wear a Large!”
  • “I will forever love you and appreciate what you have done for me and my family!”
  • “I have always HATED exercising and now I love how it makes me feel and refuse to miss a day”
  • “I dont get migraines all the time anymore!”
  • “I have so much more energy and finally feel like a good mom and enjoy being one!”

–> THIS is why I coach!!! I do it for all of THEM!! ^^^^^

I also do it for me and my children because it helps me to also be healthier and happier, a better mom, and helps me to to contribute financially to our family.

If you have nutrition and fitness goals you want to reach. Please send me a message! I would love to help! We have another challenge group starting soon!


What’s stopping you from changing?


Can we get real for a minute?  Whether it’s a new job, a new town, a new baby, or just something different than our norm, change is hard! There are so many unknowns when it comes to any kind of change in our lives and those unknowns can be scary. More than scary, change can be IS hard! It’s uncomfortable and requires us to adapt to our “new normal” This is why so many people don’t take the plunge into changing their lifestyles–change takes work!

Those first few minutes of a workout when I start to sweat and feel uncomfortable, yeah I’m tempted to quit. When I’m exhausted from my day and the last thing I want to do is cook a healthy dinner–the fast food drive thru starts to get tempting. Why? Because giving into temptation and quitting is easy!  It’s easy to say “This is too hard” and just stop. And I think some of that attitude comes from the world we live in. We’re used to things being “easy” and if anything takes extra effort we decided it’s not worth it. And even if sweating is uncomfortable and making a healthy meal takes a little more planning, nothing can beat the feeling of knowing I made a healthier choice for me and my family.  It’s like I’ve just had a little victory over temptation and I’m more empowered by it.


For example, sometimes things don’t workout the way you had planned. Kids woke up early… tempted to say “well no workout today” BUT I know that it is so important to exercise for my babies! so we put in a movie for Mr 3 year old and little sister joined me in a workout. Now I will be able to tackle my day with more joy, energy, and patience!

At 15 weeks pregnant, my knees are already getting loose and sore. So I did some low impact PiYo!! I thought this workout would be boring because I am such a cardio junky. But I love it!! And now it is so perfect for a low impact workout while pregnant so I can continue to tone my legs and arms!

So important to live a healthy lifestyle everyday. Especially now that I am preggo. This baby and my children are my biggest motivation! Let your children drive you for reaching health and fitness goals… instead of your excuse!